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[Dec. 29th, 2007|03:47 pm] |
"It was bad you guys didn't call.Honestly dude, our final count was 228 people you guysmissed a rammed show man. Everyband band made $400. Soyou only screwed yourself.Sorry dude, we only do all ages shows once in a while,work hard for me on another show, and i'll book you again, Happy Holidays,Dan"
Awesome times. It's a good final note to go out on too, thanks to all who made it possible, fuck you all.
On other notes, my aunt joyce in the states died of cancer. I never got to see her before she died or even talk to her, she one of our closest relatives in the states and one of the best.
Its definitely been a memorable last two days, and I've learned a lot. I've learned that for some people its easy to lie straight up without a guilty conscious, and that some people really cut it low. At first it could have been an effort to keep some friends, but you learn after that they really didn't give a fuck about that after they got what they wanted from you.
Anyways, other than some of that the holidays have been managable, the most notable being my time with kath which has been awesome, and so right. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2007|01:54 pm] |
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So its thursday before friday, and a day or so before the psych exam. I think im going to be studying with brennan and such tonight since i have fantastic notes from the review on my macbook :P Danielas christmas party is on friday, good thing i wont have to miss the cocktails because our show was cancelled, not like it mattered though not many people were goin? I just feel bad for jay after asking him for a show.
Futureshop is going pretty good id say? It's a lot more relaxing with less pressure than staples. It's funny, at staples they go down your throat for selling but at futureshop its like who cares? I do my own thing and im allowed to.
Me and dave finished the drum / acoustic track for chris to record his bass to that should be pretty sweet, so we can do the guitar distortion after that and maybe leave it like that?
The past couple of days have made me realize a lot about people, but I think my life a month ago was alot more uneventful in terms of drama, those were the good times at least for a while.
I might do the feeder school concert band tour thing tomorrow with nick goulet, just for something to do because I always enjoyed the feeder school tour.
Im just really agitated right now and i wanna break some skulls. Its on and off though. Some people can be idiots. I guess losing a couple friends for others is a fair trade off?
Oh, and i thought of a question last night. What's more important, money or an education? Considering money drives society, and you basically can't live in today's society without it, is money more important than education? It's pretty sad if thats the way it is.
Bah I still need to do christmas shopping |
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[Sep. 11th, 2007|12:10 am] |
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My birthday is coming up, after this week. Im hoping itll be good. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2007|06:22 pm] |
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So, work as crappy today more than usual. I gave in my two weeks. The weather suited my personality and mood tho haha god it was crappy outside. I guess at some point I have to make notes on my lectures. I think im gonna drop by mrs beveridge's house to drop off the webcam I have since i think its better than the one she has for her computer right now. Otherwise im probably going to just be at home, around doing something i guess. God this sucks. She finally got her song. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2007|02:15 am] |
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So another late update haha. So, I'm pretty sure i broke a mirror earlier, and that decided my day like I thought when i broke it. So, had the show tonight, played pretty good, not much of a turn out, not surprised. Steve was there though I was surprised, I didn't think he would be there, and by himself so it seemed none the less. That was cool of em. So throughout the night I seemed to lose multiple things: wallet, cell phone, ring, uhhh what else...I think thats about it. Thank god i found it. Oh I kinda got freaked out on the 403 coming back because i almost got in an accident going at 100 kmph. I went to change lanes over to the left, and I looked and no one was changing, as i go some idiot in a bmw speeds up and signals over and jumps right over, I had to jolt backwards / slightly lost control. So that was that, oh I lost one of my cymbal stand fasteners at chris with a cymbal pad, which was also found thank fully. Also lost my sunglasses, Im pretty sure I left them at work but couldnt find them. Im going into work tomorrow, and giving my two weeks or less notice. Uh...couldnt get a bag at costco for my laptop because they were out but hopefully ill get it in burlington tomorrow...Its a swiss gear laptop back pack for $40, should be cool.
Anywayssss, on to mac. First day of classes, thursday, i didnt have to go until 2 30 which was cool, I was supposed to have a class earlier that day but thankfully connie told me not to go because it was a tutorial...later I heard dave went to the class cuz hes in my class, and he said there was him and some cowboy guy so im thankful i didnt go haha. Oh, staples, and what set me off as to why im quitting: a week ago, I gave my manager my school schedule, and told her i have class til 6 20 on thursday, meaning i couldnt get to work for like an hour because i would have to take the bus...so, she keeps me scheduled in, so I had to work from 7 30, to 10 30...three fucking hours. Im sick of the management and im leaving. A friend who got hired there recently named anna said she could prob get me into costco...im hoping. Otherwise, ill just look elsewhere for work, just, not there.
Heard the new cartel cd, its alright, there are a few songs that I think are amazing, otherwise its alright.
Back to mac...On friday I had class at 9 20, then like no class until 2 30 which sucked, but I got to see max for like the first real time in a couple days which was cool, and hung out with daniela since she had a break until 3 30 herself. University is different, going there now makes me wish that I had gone last year though, because I still feel kind of behind in who I am or rather who I want to be...
Im hoping this week will go by fairly quickly although I know itll be one of the slowest in my life, and I await friday / saturday. Friday ill hopefully join max and dre at quarters for some party or such and have a drink at 12 o clock. The next day, I work til 5, but I dont think ill go in. I have a show at night hopefully still at the underground which Im looking forward to, hopefully ill see some faces I havent seen in awhile or such, and hopefully get to party with them after. Oh before I forget, check out www.youtube.com/thesocialtheory if you get bored and want to watch our ymca show; the sound isnt that great but its okay if you're bored.
Uh I think thats about it. Oh, after the show we went back to chiaras ( me kaitlyn dave and chiara obvi), for a couple hours and that was cool. It was good hanging out with them again. Oh and, earlier at chris' house, I hit mikey with my car...haha rather, i was driving, he jumped on my hood, stayed there for a couple secs, i swerved, and he rolled off it was hilarious. Oh, and they started construction on stone church rd, its about fucking time, although its even worse to drive, just makes it funner to drive on going the speed limit.
Tomorrow, I work 12 - 5 or w/e when Im handing in my two weeks, and hopefully ill see max and dre that'd be cool. So, whoever can come to my bday on saturday come out. If i dont go to hess or the honest lawyer, ill probably be having a backyard party, the only thing is is that there are time limits and such at my house (aka, legal noise limits). Either way Ill be drinking haha. Happy 19 to me. Im feeling prettyyy lost right now. Let me know if you want to come on saturday.
Anyways, ill prob be updating this pretty often. Check it out for future updates. |
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[May. 25th, 2007|04:04 pm] |
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So, last night was battle of the bands...Im glad the day was over. From 11 am in the morning to 11 am at night, I was going non stop. The setup for battle of the bands is probably one of the most complicated setups you can do for a school, and i did my best, but my best still didnt satisfy some. It seems that I always get fucked over in the end, so why do i even bother trying? Why? Because there are a select few who do appreciate and understand the pressure of what i do, when others sneer and dont understand, at least, they never will until such pressure is on them from an audience and 30 different band members. The one who performed the best cover won, and they deserve it. Nick has an awesome voice.
As for after, I was dead. But, there are a couple things that made my night: 1) Mr.Valvasori. I have incredible respect for that man. He came to me when i was almsot dead and falling over, considering i was sweating and tired before I played and told me that I play with passion, and there was no way in hell that he expected me to play the way i did with such energy. 2) Paul the custodian, funniest guy, id say why but you wouldnt understand. 3) My friends, that came to support not only me but the entire group, it was worth playing just to get a good response from at least one person who makes a difference.
After that, we went to little caesars, and I had some of the best fucking pizza. I havent had it in forever thats what made it awesome :) With the gang, and adam, and nick and stuff. Nick, oh man he saved me at the show when my floor tom crapped out, i had no clue he was back there i was actually playing on it as he was fixing it lol. Thx nick. Afterwards we went to the park, then to analicias park, then i drove my love home.
I havent said it often enough, and ive been realizign it more lately than ever about how much she means to me. The morning of yesterday I took her to breakfast at the egg and i, and I loved the entire morning. We went to the pet store, randomly zellers, then i went to her house with her for a bit, and it was soooo worth it cuz i got like....the most amazing hug...like one ive never had before and i dotn think anything could top it. She fits into my arms perfectly, like its meant to be, rather, it is meant to be. She looked gorgeous at the botb while i looked like death, but she still wanted to be with me. Her name is kathleen, and I love her with all my heart.
As for the university stuff, I have to choose an acceptance by monday...good luck to me.
Drive in tomorrow night maybe? Hooters or somethin?
Oh and I went for a bike ride today, it was nice and i got home before it started to rain. And i cant stop thinking about kath.
I have to go to work tonight and my knees are like jello from the trails lol.
Ill update more often, now that I have more happy things to update about.
Oh ya! This tuesday, come see my band at the underground for 10 bucks with social code. Itll make up for the show last night, we promise.
Anyways, I love the people in my life, and I love one person in particular, she knows who she is, and i will be seeing her tonight cuz i promised i would, but i would anyways even if i didnt promise :) If i have time im going to buy her a dairy queen blizzard! |
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[Oct. 14th, 2006|12:58 am] |
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Today's been a pretty shitty day. I woke up planning to take my camera back to sears and say good bye to one of our managers at work...didnt happen because i couldnt get there and back in time for school with the bus when the mother said she'd go. School was shit, pretty easy math session and relatively easy and boring english poetry study...Work was fucking ass. Its pretty much the worst day i've ever had. There was two of us in computers, and a hewlett packard rep who'd be selling stuff and getting me to get the stuff as I was taking care of like three people at one time and shit. I took care of like 5 computer repair drop offs, three or four computers / desktops, 3 or 4 esps, etc. Not like some of you know what i mean...third shift in a row without a break didnt stop once. But it got lighter in mood when daniela bren giuliano and sean stopped by at 9 to visit cuz they were at the mall. It helped my mood. Before during work i was like having to take deep breaths. On one sale, the general manager pretty much embarrassed me during a sale by pushing the esp. w/e w/e...after work, we dropped dani off, and I checked my pockets to find out the cheque i was going to cash before work was gone...with my signature on the back basically ready for it to cash...that would have been over 400 bucks down the drain for two weeks of work...w/e at that point i cared, but i didnt. Fuck i couldnt have cared less. W/e it happened, im screwed, w/e. Then I found it, and good rest for a bit. Got home, bren picked me up...bren was pretty sweet today he called me back and everything when i asked him, picked me up from my house after work, and visited work like he said he would. I was happy when they came into work...but i was in a fucking rush right until 9 45 so i couldnt even really talk to them. Ugh w/e...my mood todays been shit. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|10:32 pm] |
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Today was meh. Went to school, aced a quiz, worked out, got two new pairs of shoes one for work one for normal use that are pretty comfortable for training with, and today I got paid. So today was alright. Almost got hit by a car, almost got in an accident, life flash before the eyes, nothing new haha, all stuff thats happened before. Max came into work today to photocopy something and I got to say hi I liked that, and krista dropped off a coffee to me when she was in the area. Found my grad ring I thought I lost, and Ill prob just continue to work out. Waitin for my visa, that should be sick, drinking at brens on saturday, maybe by myself on friday if Im not workin which I dont think i am, i gotta ge trid of the mickeys before they're found haha. Anybody wanna join friday? Toronto music expo on sunday that ill prob go to should be pretty good, otherwise school is boring but im working at it. And, I'm thinkin maybe ill just go to college second semester, or go to toronto for the mastermind studios course that offers the university degrees in sound reproduction...either that or take the calculus next semester so I can go anywhere. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2006|09:29 pm] |
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Today was actually an alright day. I got to talk to kath this morning, training at staples was nothing i didnt already know so I went right into it and sold big time. So work is beginning to look up. I was really happy to talk to kath today and I cant wait til october 28th. I dont work tomorro, who wants to do something? Oh and tonight was my "birthday" dinner...we had swiss chalet, i tlaked about how nobody really mentioned my birthday on my birthday, and i didnt get anything at all from my family...no party, no nothing...everybody else does? But, whatever...I pretty much have everything i want...minus a g2 ive waited for forever and a digital camera...im selfish |
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[Sep. 24th, 2006|12:17 am] |
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Hey lj, guess ill make an entry. Right now lifes playing games with me. Sometimes ok, othertimes i feel like shit. My moms going into surgery soon, my dad will be out of a job by december, my aunt and uncle are broken up, and kathleens in england...this sucks..I feel really sick and im down. I hate facebook too. man. stupid thing. anyways, i guess what i need is a hug...I haven't had one in a while. STM sucks, job is ok, otherwise life kind of stinks right now...Waterloo was fun for the most part, now im back to square one...bands starting up again tho thats cool...i have to keep busy to distract me from reality. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|02:33 am] |
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Hey, I'm writing an entry yes, prob the first of many more to come. So, back to school. How depressing is that? Haha gotta love my introductory line. The summer went by way too fucking fast, sometimes slow just when I needed it to be and when I needed to cherish the moment. This past summer was my best summer by far, in most cases haha (minus the van accident). I bonded with the friends that I'll probably have for the rest of my life, and developed an unbelievable, and almost unattainable relationship with a girl who'd I'd give up my world to. None of my relationships can compare to my relationship with her. At first it was iffy, but, i realized the error of my waiting ways :P See, I sometimes I think what would have happened if I had asked her out sooner, or sometimes I think i may have regretted things that I've done in my life...but, you know what? I don't regret a single damn thing. I love the way my life has been so far, because if it had turned out any other way, I might not be able to say all of this today, and I might not have had the connection that I have with kath. Kath, you are my light in the dark, my strength after I've fallen and don't feel like getting up. Not too long ago I would have struggled to get back up, but now I jump back up to the challenge just to get a glimpse of your brilliant smile, and your hypnotizing eyes.
So, my summer has gotten me all of this, which sucks 'cause it was so good that a lot of stuff can only go downhill for now, until the time when i know it'll pick up. Friends have gone to university, some have stayed at STM for a fifth year...I'm gonna say this now, as much as STM has been a home to me, I don't like seeing it everyday. I'd rather see many other things, like the fresh morning air in east sussex, or the breath taking atmospheres. I'll have to wait and see where the future takes me, but where ever it does takes me, I know exactly who's going to play a role in it. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2006|04:58 pm] |
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So I totally had one of the best weekends ever. I don't remember the last time that I felt so alive because of someone else. Me, kath and her parents went up to her trailer this weekend to spend some time away from home. I had an awesome time and I'm thankful for every moment of it. I've never had such a strong connection with a person as I do with her. For the first time in my life I don't have much reason to be angry. I have a job, a promising future I hope lol, awesome friends, and a girlfriend who is intelligent, beautiful, caring, trustworthy, honest, open, and much more that'll come in a later entry. I'm looking forward to spending as much time as possible with her like I have the past 2 months, trying to make up for lost time, even as september approaches... |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2006|02:19 pm] |
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I'm actually beginning to get those irritating feelings. Everybodys been "busy" lately and not able to hang, and it feel sto me like my life only got serious when I finally got my staples job...like wtf the last two years of my life has seemingly been a waste because I've accomplished like nothing I should have...like I only fucking got a job the other day, and I'm going back to take courses that should have been completed last year...w/e |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2006|09:26 pm] |
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So I'm back home and I feel like a dirty mexican from all the sun ive gotten. It was pretty sweet like up north always is. I want to go back up there with the new boat we're getting and hopefully the new car depending on our budget. I actually made it to kaits bday on monday, and didn't leave until early wednesday morn ( 4 30) to go up north. I seem to have lost touch with most of the people I know already even before the summer is over, so we'll see what happens in the last coming weeks. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|06:53 pm] |
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So I had my third interview this morn with the general manager, went pretty smooth. Then dropped my books off at hill park got my deposit back, came home to find a new monitor...sweeet. My dad got a brand new acer 17" monitor for $5, works like a charm. Then, we went to the junk yard to get van parts to fix the little things for going up north....got in an accident across from limeridge in between pier one imports and staples, so we can't use the van we spent 3 hrs getting parts for...sweet. Van might be out of commission for good too because the frame might be bent, and we will barely get fuck all if its written off on the insurance. We were going straight and some 18 yearoldish turned left 10 feet in front of us at the last second. Haha, we were going like 30 km/h, and we totalled his toyota corolla...japanese shit cars. We barely phased the front right corner of the van, but the corolla is undrivable because the right side is caved in, and when we hit we lifted it off the ground onto another van that was turning out of pier one...as if thats good. Perfect timing though. Its funny, I swear i predicted it...when we were walking in the junk hard i said "its funny how the front ends of all these gmc vans aren't damaged," then when we got off the linc i told my dad to go to stone church instead of going past pier one and such, but he went the other way. If I didn't warn him he wouldn't have been able to hit the brakes though and we would have hit full force...reminds me back a couple months where I warned him about a car that went through the lights when we got off the link when our front end would have been taken off..when instead the front end of the car beside us on our right was...I've been seeing coincidences way too often lately that seem to connect in some direct way. I wanted that van to use as my own...we've had it for more than 12 years so it holds quite a bit of memories...hopefully it won't go. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2006|04:21 pm] |
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Its been an alright day so far, had my second interview, third and final interview with the store manager tomorrow so that's pretty set. Dinner tomorro with sabs and kath at kelseys or something, then hot tub and stuff tonight. Not a bad schedule, with gaming and movies in between. Then hopefully saturday will be going to the hotel in toronto then edgefest the next day then the cottage until saturday. The only time i have to spare is tomorro between 11 and 9, and today between now and 10 so thats not a bad agenda. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2006|01:57 am] |
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Wasaga was definitely the highlight of my summer thus far. I hope everybodys enjoying their summer with or without me for some. Dropped out of summer school, decided to take english 4u during the semester instead. I have my second staples interview tomorro at upper wentworth for computer sales associate, edgefest sunday hopefully, and cottage from sunday to saturday then g2 test. All in all julys passing by pretty quick. Anyways, call me up some day if you feel like hanging out whoever you are, I haven't seen half of you for a good while, I'll be doing prob just about everything and anything. Lates. |
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[Jun. 18th, 2006|03:04 pm] |
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Hey guys, here's my post with the rest of the people that will prob read this when they get the chance.
Blaven - your my boy blav. You've been there everyday basically. You've been there with some stupid thing thats funny, or you've had my back in stupid relationship problems and such. You brought me into the world of having Asian friends lol, donnas party was awesome. I thought u were going to be staying back, but you got into mac and congratulations on that you deserve it. I hope you bring me to some crazy asian crack parties or somethin next year, because your my bro babe. You're a respectable musician (i was stunned when u played guitar in class actually), and you represent basically who I am in who you are. Love ya forever man.
Daniela - Daniela, I was gonna cover u in the last blog but i was so tired lol. I didn't really know you much when I went to your bday party last year but I'm glad I did. You're an amazing human being and an amazing friend. You're funny, and you lost something I lost too. You have an amazing future ahead of you. Whenever you and kaitlyn were together you seemed like twin sisters. I'm super glad to have met you and shared those emotional conversations on msn...you emo lol jk. I'm not going to say goodbye because I know we'll be seeing more of each other soon enough.
Sweeners - sweeners sweeners. Lol I made up that nick just now cuz i didn't want to confuse u with wrobel, and sweeners works. Your moms a teacher! hahaha! jk. I met you really for the first time in grade 11 bio in turcos class, where me you and blaven shared some good funny times. I've partied with you, you've been to basically all of our shows, you've hugged the toilet more than twice, you're a fucking all star. Even though we don't talk a ton, whenever we do talk I feel like I can tell you anything. I'm happy that you found emily and I hope you guys stick through it till the end. You're going to be going away next year, and I wish we could have had more times together hanging out...hopefully our paths will cross again too. It'd be fucking amazing to have the entire crew back together some day for a reunion, I just thought of that. I love ya dude.
Dani - Dani I'm not sure if you're gonna read this either. We started to talk when...hmm...was it because of cmor? I dont really remember, nor do I entirely care because it doesn't matter...because I'm just have glad to have met you. I will be seeing you next year seeing as you will be coming back (>:)). You are more of a friend than you know. In the past year you've become one of my best friends and most caring friends, and you think I'm pissed off with you all the time when I'm really not, I'm really just being a jerk with nothing to do. pft. You have a direct effect on my mood all the time, and you will for times to come.
For anybody I didn't include, its nothing personal. There's a lot of you which I didn't include, because I know that it'll come out eventually come this summer in person. I don't regret meeting any of my friends that I have right now; some of you brighten up my day when I feel like shit even when it doesn't seem like you do, and some of you I've been amazing friends with at one time in my life or another, but are not now because of some reason or another. In any case, whether we talk or not anymore, know that I do care for you and I always will, because that is the type of person that I am. I do not hate anyone in my past that has wronged me, nor do I think I could hold a grudge for the rest of my life because of it. I hope that all of you who are my friends will not leave my life, because I hold all of you that close to my heart. For all of you who may lose contact, I hope that eventually one day we'll cross paths again, and rock out with our cocks out. You bastards, I love you all. |
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| The possible end |
[Jun. 18th, 2006|01:55 am] |
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I haven't been able to see or talk to any of you much lately the past month because of my schedule with yev and such, so I'll take the time to reveal some of my feelings. First off, me dan and matt all love the sweet comments you guys have all given about the yev from what I've seen on livejournal especially (kait and sabs),you guys are awesome. In the past 3 months, I've lost my bandmates because they have sought other musical paths, a person I truly cared about who made months fake in a heartbeat, regular contact with former band mates, the end to my student council term, and unfathomable amount of people who are leaving to random universities...it seems like everyone is going to a different one. Its funny, because I'll still be living my legacy at Stm for probably another year, and teaching someone or some ppl what I know so I can leave knowing that I won't be needed. I watched the tst music video last night that we put together, and my heart fell into an even deeper crunch. Right now I'm surrounded everyday by people who know my name and say hi to me everyday in the hallways; I can't walk down a hallway without saying hi to a person every 5 seconds. As lonely as I feel, I know I'm not as lonely as I will be come next year. You are all pursuing your life careers, I just hope you don't forget me in your long journeys. You know what? Seeing as I'm writing this, I think I'll write my list of people here and say what I think about each one of them....be prepared, its going to be a long post, because I'm going to include everyone I can think of...sorry if I forgot you. I'm going to first put the people who might actually see this post down, then the rest another time.
Mikey - ill start with you buddy. At first when I met you, it was in the band room when you were playing the drums and I was trying to tell you how to do something haha, you short bastard. Over the course of a year, being in tst, you became one of my good friends, and a person close to my heart, even if you make some stupid decisions *cough cough* - literally, need I say more? lol jk. Lately more than ever you've been a help, and with the split of tst, I still have tons of respect for you as a musician, and as a close friend.
Dan - Dan oh man...at first I hated your guts along with dave because you came in and accomplished more in a semester than I had in 3 years...you got chicks to dig you lol. Me and dave had already thought of starting a band, I brought brennan in at his first disapproval, and you came to us with the tst idea. Tst was only a beginning, tst became a direct way for me to able to talk to you, and open up to you as the fucking amazing human being you are. Like everyone you've made your mistakes, we've had our arguments, and still through everyone you're one of the most respectable and accomplished human beings I know, even if you were american. I want you to know I support you and everything you do, even if it meant leaving tst for a new project u ass haha. You will always be my friend, and I hope you remember me when you become what you're striving for down your new path. Maybe one day we'll go into business together? Maybe one day we'll form a new band that brings on new horizons? Who knows, who cares, as long as you stay in my life buddy. You have always been a pillar of strength for me, and you have made me the person I am today.
Kaitlyn - we met in my basement at one of our practises for more music, when I showed you those logs that made u cry :(. At first you were a pretty intimidating person to talk to seeing as you were dating dan, so I tended to stay away from you. Then we got to know each other better, and you developed an awesome friendship with bren that I admired. You achieved a level of relationship with dan that I respected and admired, a level that I want to reach with the person that fate brings me to. You act as one of my main pillars of strength, even if it seems like I shrugg off a lot of the things you say, they do stick with me and I do think of them. You mean so much to me, and you better keep in contact with me. You are one of my closest friends, and I just want you to be happy. So happy that God is jealous of your smile. After a all, you could go on a book cover ;) lol.
Matt - Wrobel that is. Buddy, I've known you for awhile now. You and your brother are the reasons I am who I am. My involvement in stage crew and year end video have been two of the most significant experiences in my entire life. I have known you for awhile, from going back to ur house for lunch a couple times a week, to seeing you achieve a high academic status. You will be a friend that stays with me forever. I won't lose contact with you nor danny, because you guys are two of the most respectable and friendly people I have ever fucking met, bottom line.
Dave - now this has been a love and hate friendship haha. I've known you since the olden days back at SCOS, from doing the macarana at the talent show, to playing live shows with you...it's been quite a journey. Its funny, didn't we "play" blur song 2 at SCOS and I "played the drums?" lol its funny how the past has a fate in the future. We reunited at STM, where daily we'd exchange random words about getting a band together and how I got my first drum kit and was learning so I could play in it. We started TST, one of the best things in my life while it lasted, and helped each other through the hardest possible times emotionally. There's been times where we were both stubborn bastards because thats who we are; when it seemed that we would never talk again, we'd come back and talk anyways. I know we've lost a lot of contact, but it seems when I see you in the hallways that we never have lost contact and that its the same way everytime we talk, just as if we talked on a daily basis and were buds. You are the best guitarist I have ever known/seen/played with, because of your scrawny fingers...jk. Its funny, at first dan was the hardcore michigan guy and you were into the lighter stuff, and you switched spots, fate is kinda amusing in that way. I wish you the best of luck with your new project, and maybe we'll join up in another one eventually? Who knows. All i know is that when you and bren left tst, I had the feeling tst would be done, because 1) I didn't like the idea of not playing with you and bren, 2) there was no 5 man drive behind it.
Brennan - you bastard you. We've also had a love and hate relationship ironically. From me making fun of your mom and saying gay jokes in elementary, to also playing in tst. I've shared some of my most important secrets with you, and you with me (haha not in a gay way). You became like my brother. I would take a bullet for you. I brought you into the band project with me and dave, so its ironic that you left with dave lol. You've been a jerk so many times that I could have made you not graduate twice, but that would have been one of the lowest a person could go, even if it would have brought some degree of satisfaction...haha jk. You're going to be back at STM next year, so we have another year left before we part. Theres not a ton I can say about you buddy, but you know I am here for you, and you have been an amazing person as such to be there for me when I needed pressure releasing lol...many times over and over you have been. We've had our monthly bitch and gossip talks that revealed a lot, and I hope to have many more.
Stacey - Stacey stacey stacey. I know we aren't too close, but you have been an influence on my mood directly. You and brennan are lucky to have each other, even through the rough waters that you guys went against. I didn't choose sides when push came to shove, because I wanted to retain all my friendships. You honestly have one of the best smiles I have ever seen. That laugh and smile in combination, provides a double KO of brighten up ur day. Lol i know that was super cheese. But honestly, you're an amazing person at that and I am honoured to have met you. You're an amazing vocalist, an amazing friend, and i'll be seeing you next year too.
Sabrina - oh my god...(i refrain from using God in sentences, but I have to in this case). We are almost like the same fucking person its scary. We have the same humour, we hate being mad at people, we love having as many friends as possible, and have known each other for awhile. We've had our history lol, you have been involved in certain aspects of my life more than anybody else. You have been a person I've came to for guidance, and I've been here to help you too. You're an amazing vocalist which i had NO FUCKING CLUE ABOUT until you subbed for melissa was it? You are someone that I could probably not live without because you are so fucking awesome. You've helped me with my relationships, my friendships, you've been there to relieve some of my bottled up pressure, and have been there at random times to keep me company. You will always be someone who is in my heart, through the good and the bad times, and we're gonna fucking rock out with our cocks out at wasaga.
Steve - steve more lately than ever you have been amazing. You've been through some of the things I've been through, and have been there practically since the beginning of tst. You have astonished me with the work and dedication you've had on stage crew, even if you don't consider it much. It's been awesome having you on it thats for sure. You wrote that livejournal post that summed up a lot of your feelings, and I respected you for saying what was on your mind and not backing down even if people were against it, that shows true strength. We were both pawns at times, so we both know what it feels like in that sort of sense. I'm looking forward to partying it out with you again soon enough, and fighting those vietnamese cock gobblers.
Adrianne - you're an interesting one. I'm not sure if you'll read this. At first, we started to talk in grade 11 math, and had been in each others class once before in mlle sousas grade 9 french academic. We talked and talked, and you opened up to me in time, and asked me for guidance. I considered you a good friend, and an awesome person to talk to...helping you, helped me in different ways. I will never forget the night on the reservoir where we looked at the stars and talked, or that walk on the chedoke where you grabbed my hand being "afraid" lol. sure. We had english together last semester, and I should have talked to you at prom or have even asked to it, thats a mistake that'll never be forgiven even if you say it was. I asked you out, because I really cared about you, but I had feared from the beginning that there would be a lack of communication, because there was a block sort of because of the way you had changed right before we had started dating...a sort of block that I thought I could overcome, because I didn't want to be another shut out. In the end, fate came into play. I will remember you, because I don't think there's any place for me in your future as your life long friend or something, but maybe I am wrong who knows. In whatever case, I'll always be here for you if you ever need help, but knowing you you'd rather shrug something off and forget about it rather than ask for help :/. But in any case, I want you to be happy in whatever you do, so I hope you give steve a better chance, and that you two make it the best it can be. I'm glad that you decided to go to college, and I wish you best of luck in your life long journey...hopefully our paths will cross eventually in some shape.
Kath - kath, haha, I'm not sure what I can write that won't make you cry, but I'll try my best. I first heard of you when dave told me about who you were and that you were taking pictures for tst and such. We started to talk after tam gave you my email when me and her started to talk because of carly. Since then, practically everyday on msn we've talked, or at least once a week, where as with other people I tend to not talk to them unless I need to or see them irl. We talked on msn on a ton, even though we barely talked and had never hung out irl. Eventually, we started to talk irl and hang out irl, and you brought me into your group of friends...people who I saw on a daily basis that I never really knew on a deeper level. What an amazing experience it has been. You have been there for me every single fucking day, when I needed someone to talk to, or even when I didn't want to talk to anybody. You're amazing at english, and I wish I had seen one of your swimming competitions fuck...you should have invited me lol. You have your rough times as does everyone, and I have been honoured with being able to help you through them as you have helped me through practically every up and down I've faced, directly and indirectly. Lately more than ever have you become my best friend, and maybe even more. I see you on a daily basis, I talk to you on a daily basis, and hang out with you practically every weekend because you're an amazing person to hang out with. A lot of the times you are misjudged, because you don't really like to go out and make friends in that way. I hope people read this, because you have an amazing personality, an understanding one, and are down right one of the best all rounded girls that I know. When I heard that you were moving to England, even for only a year, and there was the sense that I maybe be possibly losing that friend to talk to on a daily basis. But, I've come to realize that is not true. I don't care what anybody thinks, you are definitely one in a trillion. haha corny. I'm looking forward to seeing what the next two months has in store for us and how grad will be...because it will definitely be the time of a life time.
There will be more soon enuf guys for a lot of people, I just got out what I could cuz im super tired :(. Gnight. |
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we finished the video....I walked out of the yev room and saw daylight in the forum for the first real time in a week...I loved it. Hello summer, bye stress mostly...hopefully....probably not...lol. |
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